Today I realized while looking through old pictures how much weight I’ve gained in the lady two years. This is not okay.
Today will be different than the last eight years of my life.
Today I forgive you
The family that has forsaken me
The girls that strive to hurt me
The friends that do not love me
The promises those have failed to keep
The cowards that said they would protect me
The best friends that pretend they aren’t ashamed of me.
To the best friend that is pathetic when it comes to loyalty.
And myself. For the past that won’t stop the haunting and the monsters I let eat me alive.
Today I release the pain, the guilt, and the resentment.
Today will be different.
Today I will start over. I will protect myself. I will live every moment as the girl I spend my days dreaming I was. And even if I fail to change like I have so many times before, these failures will be different because none of you will be standing behind my fear of that failure.